Its no fucking secret. I always screw up. Why the hell should I try anymore? Theres only so many times you can fall down and get back up... really....Im tired of this. Im tired of all this shit. Im tired of this life. Im not going to get back up this time. I dont deserve a good life anyway. I really dont, Ive done way too many things wrong.
5:00 am ish I cant go to sleep and feel like Im going to throw up... the guilt is killing me