Thursday, January 29, 2009

im not high

Its been a day and a half since Ive gotten high. And I feel pretty good. Even though Im still feeling a little bit of the withdrawls. I dont know I feel kind of good that I stopped. Almost like Im normal... Things are pretty good right now.

Ive been eating more and sleeping a lot more. My eyes are a little red but not bloodshot. And I finally have the taste of blood out of my mouth. lol I never thought Id be happy once I stopped getting high. I hope it continues to be like this. Ive promised some friends that I wont use any other drugs or hang out with any bad people until i get my life together. I remember when I said I was too tired to keep getting back up every time i fall. But now I feel like I finally have the strength to do it. And that I can do it.

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am
Flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself


4 comments:

  1. Andrea! I'm so happy! Keep it up. You can do it. Happiness is always within a range of respect to yourself. I wosh you good luck. Take care.

    ~Louise

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  2. these are your words: "Ive promised some friends that I wont use any other drugs or hang out with any bad people until i get my life together.". there's that self-destructive pattern again! you just said, i'm gonna wait till i'm doing good, then i'm gonna fuck it all up again. WHY???

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